As I sit writing this I have to say that I can't believe that just 6 months ago the thought of not having all of my gifts sent out to arrive in time to open on Christmas morning or Christmas Eve would have devastated this "imperfect perfectionist", as one of my friends said of being a Virgo.
To be honest I will admit that the week before Christmas I felt it. That hyperventilating, blood chilling feeling of "oh no, they won't make it"...come on, you know what I am talking about. <smile> But then this calm voice, unbelievably mine, said "it's okay, life happens and the only time crunch happening is the one you are creating". I have to say I liked this voice that was able to instantly tell me all would be okay, to breathe, let go of the perfectionist need and do what you can as you are able.
Oh my gosh! I loved this levelheaded serenely calm woman who had somehow taken up residence in my soul without me really realizing it. Don't get me wrong I know I've got a wonderful counselor that has worked with me over a lot of issues but I had not realized how much of what I was doing was actually taking root. I had spent so many hours thinking I could never change behaviors that had been with me 29 years (again) that I was very shocked to hear this new tape running inside my head. Shocked but sooooo happy!
This revelation had me seeking out other areas where change was taking place and to my amazement found more instances. Of course I did find the occasional thing or two that still needed a LOT of work but that's okay....I can see progress and that makes me feel wonderful!
Hope this day finds you well and feeling blessed,
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