It is time for me to order some more moo cards and I think I want to create a whole little series of new images for them. In fact, I believe I will create some of them tonight and let you take a look at them tomorrow. The need for art and for more light and fresh things is still overtaking me. <smile>
Never heard of moo cards??? Well, check them out here: www.moo.com You will be hooked at their wonderful little size and what you can do with them. :)
So tune in tomorrow and I will show you some of my images....I may even be able to post some "while I was creating" shots too.
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Another thing on my mind this day is distance. More precisely distance in relationships whether it be distance of miles or just distance of self. I've found over the last several months that there are those that I have had to emotionally distance myself from. It's a hard thing to do when you are talking about friends and relationships but sometimes we find that instead of encouraging us and lifting us up that sometimes these friends are doing just the opposite. Sometimes it slaps us in the face when this is happening and at others we hardly notice until something finally comes along and says "hey, listen up". When this happens do you just toss the friendship? No, not at all but you have to be very aware of what is going on or you can take on issues that really aren't yours to bear and, believe me, that creates its own kind of havoc. :)
As far as the distance of miles...well that's another story and I have to say that I put this question to my friends on FB and they pretty much feel like I do. There is no distance of miles that can stop a relationship from lasting....only the participants can do that. So, what to do when someone, someone very important, tells you that it is hard, if not impossible, to have a close relationship when a lot of miles separate you. Well, what I am going to do is say poppycock! They may choose to go that direction but I don't have to. I can maintain my part of the relationship as I am supposed to and want to and if they choose not to then that is on their side of the street not mine. I don't have to sweep it up, mop it or fret about it. That is their's and mine is mine and "mine" is all I have to be concerned with.
I can still send emails, or letters or phone and leave messages and it is up to them to read them or delete them, read them or tear them up or answer or return a call. I have no control over what they do...nada....none....zilch. But on the positive side they have no control over what I do either so I will continue to send emails, write letters, make phone calls and I will be happy that I am doing those things because I do want that relationship. Doesn't mean I will ever have it but it does mean that I don't have to ever feel guilty about not stepping up and doing the right thing where they are concerned.
Tom always says...wear life like a loose garment. Geeze I do wish it were that easy, and perhaps in some ways it is. I do know that I have done better in the last year at standing up for myself than I have probably in my entire adult life. Which is a very good thing. :)
Most Important to Me is this....
- I love my family and wish we could have a close and loving relationship.
- I am still their daughter/sister/aunt and nothing will ever change that.
- I have a family of friends that I love and that I would do anything to defend and protect.
- Those same friends also love me and they have my back too.
- I have a good heart and anyone that doesn't think so probably doesn't know me too well.
- I love to share everything I know about art with my friends, my students....everyone. :)
- I think that my blog is my blog and although I can say whatever I want to here why would I ever want to use it for bad? I think it is awful when someone feels the need to publicly rip someone on their blog or facebook or twitter. Can't we just all be adults and get along? Besides doing fun stuff on a blog is so much more, well, fun! :)
- I am grateful for everyone that stops by here as they make their way through this Land O'Blog and I hope that you will always find something to make you smile, say "uh-huh" or just gives you a creative rush.
Before this post takes on a life of its own I will say have a great evening and thank you for being a part of my day and my journey. <smile>
Oh, just one more thing...I know I am not perfect. I've made mistakes, I've spoken words or done things that have hurt people, I've tried to make amends and move forward hoping to have learned a lesson. Will I make mistakes again? You betcha after all I'm human...flesh and bone.....with a mouth that sometimes doesn't know when to stay shut. I will have many more opportunities, I am sure, to humble myself over some silly stunt. I just hope that when those times arise that the apologies I offer will be accepted, that my heart will be known and that it is known that my intentions are never bad.
Trust me, Lesley, we all grapple with similar issues. Loved ones, family, friends, etc., it all takes alot from both parties to make a relationship work. We are at an age where we tire easily of drama and rigidity. Differences of opinions are a natural part of life, but I only have respect when the differences are respected, not judged.
I have distanced myself from the ones that only want of me. I love to be giving as well, bit some times takers can eat you alive, so i find it important to find a happy medium in regards to that. Sometimes lately, i feel like I don't have much left to give.
This is your blog, so yes, you have the right to say as you please. It is very simple- if they don't like what they are reading, they can quite simply, exit the blog! You aren't a name caller and you aren't a mean person. Discussing your feelings is something you are entitled to do. A personal blog is meant to please you, not anyone else.
Posted by: kecia | 07/07/2011 at 04:55 PM